Post by Bengal on Nov 1, 2013 11:24:04 GMT -5
I'm sharing something with everyone. After I finish this story arc, I may just be leaving. Now before everyone goes off and complains, my possible decision is based off personal reasons.
Ever since my grandmother passed in 2006, every year Thanksgiving and Christmas ate hard. It's a time that I need my friends the most. Lately, my friends have been slowly becomeing less and less,available. They barely talk to me, they leave without saying anything, they start things but leave me hanging. It's becoming a constant. No one has a clue how much pain I'm in nor how much it hurts. I've been crying myself to sleep pretty much these last few days....
Like always though, my friends have time for everyone else and others, but none for me....so frankly I literally just feel like no one cares like I don't matter because they just leave me without hesitation, I feel like I'm no longer of any importance and that feeling tears me apart.
Every years it's getting worse, and I'm reaching my limit. I need my friends support, need them the most. Not have them talk with me and than just leave....
My decision is not final. I'm just hurting especially after what my mom pulled for a second time on me. Diamondwolf knows what I'm talking about. Chances are I won't be leaving at all...*shrugs* I...I just don't know anymore...
Ever since my grandmother passed in 2006, every year Thanksgiving and Christmas ate hard. It's a time that I need my friends the most. Lately, my friends have been slowly becomeing less and less,available. They barely talk to me, they leave without saying anything, they start things but leave me hanging. It's becoming a constant. No one has a clue how much pain I'm in nor how much it hurts. I've been crying myself to sleep pretty much these last few days....
Like always though, my friends have time for everyone else and others, but none for me....so frankly I literally just feel like no one cares like I don't matter because they just leave me without hesitation, I feel like I'm no longer of any importance and that feeling tears me apart.
Every years it's getting worse, and I'm reaching my limit. I need my friends support, need them the most. Not have them talk with me and than just leave....
My decision is not final. I'm just hurting especially after what my mom pulled for a second time on me. Diamondwolf knows what I'm talking about. Chances are I won't be leaving at all...*shrugs* I...I just don't know anymore...
